[funnily enough in the space of that pause to be upset viktor is doing something similar, closing his eyes and just dealing with how close they had been to an easy go, just this once. had he not tried to follow that warning about risks and recklessness? going into lumenwood was about finding a safer, proper way.
which can't be even remotely easy either, as it turns out. he's so tired of decaying. he's far more tired of subjecting pal to witnessing it.]
You won't. You understand your world and it's people better than I ever could. I trust your judgment, Palamedes.
[at the very least he can offer a pointless smile to the screen, one pal can't see of course but grateful nonetheless to him. sweet man, watching his step when so few others ever even thought to bother.]
I agree. He made a good point when we spoke, about dream logic ruling over our forms here and how what we deeply believe or know about our bodies making up said body's reality. If that is true the mental realm may be what we need to focus on.
[haha. getting a little too close to uh, emotional lobotomy territory again. whoops. yes, he is thinking a little along the lines of what if i did something to make my brain believe my lungs were fine, but at least he has the good grace to consider other options first!]
There's still making lungs for transplant. Maybe the process would be sufficiently startling enough while still being less... reckless.
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which can't be even remotely easy either, as it turns out. he's so tired of decaying. he's far more tired of subjecting pal to witnessing it.]
You won't. You understand your world and it's people better than I ever could. I trust your judgment, Palamedes.
[at the very least he can offer a pointless smile to the screen, one pal can't see of course but grateful nonetheless to him. sweet man, watching his step when so few others ever even thought to bother.]
I agree. He made a good point when we spoke, about dream logic ruling over our forms here and how what we deeply believe or know about our bodies making up said body's reality. If that is true the mental realm may be what we need to focus on.
[haha. getting a little too close to uh, emotional lobotomy territory again. whoops. yes, he is thinking a little along the lines of what if i did something to make my brain believe my lungs were fine, but at least he has the good grace to consider other options first!]
There's still making lungs for transplant. Maybe the process would be sufficiently startling enough while still being less... reckless.