[ he's avoided the goriest entertainment for this very reason. it hadn't gotten any easier, nor was he ever going to be prepared to see his own hand spliced right off and getting— all of that, burned into his memory. so that. that was an artery. oh.
the more he thinks of it as a cloudy nightmare, the more it comes back to haunt him. the question doesn't make it any smoother a task to answer back, either. ]
Just . . . Like, [ he's not looking at palamedes. he chooses to look at the floor. he's always maintained eye contact because he has always been honest. ] Whenever something like that, happens? Even if it's not all the time, I'm . . . Deadweight. To everyone including me. And, I guess, [ this part is said quickly, as shoyo rubs the bottom of his nose in an idle, meaningless gesture beyond a nervous fidget: ] The nightmares don't stop.
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[ he's avoided the goriest entertainment for this very reason. it hadn't gotten any easier, nor was he ever going to be prepared to see his own hand spliced right off and getting— all of that, burned into his memory. so that. that was an artery. oh.
the more he thinks of it as a cloudy nightmare, the more it comes back to haunt him. the question doesn't make it any smoother a task to answer back, either. ]
Just . . . Like, [ he's not looking at palamedes. he chooses to look at the floor. he's always maintained eye contact because he has always been honest. ] Whenever something like that, happens? Even if it's not all the time, I'm . . . Deadweight. To everyone including me. And, I guess, [ this part is said quickly, as shoyo rubs the bottom of his nose in an idle, meaningless gesture beyond a nervous fidget: ] The nightmares don't stop.